Pain

I don't understand

Why the pain is back this way?

Now all that pelvic/lower abdominal pain that was so bad before my D&C is back suddenly. 3rd dose of pain pills for the day. And I didn’t take them soon enough so I’m already in a shitton of pain.

I don’t want to have to deal with this again. why is this pain back? I don’t understand.

fuck. fuckfuckfuckfuckFUCK.
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Old pain. New pain. Sitting at work trying to focus around it all. Trying not to grunt or groan or moan as I ripple with cramps and pain. Back to steadier bleeding too.

Trying not to be worried or scared or negative… Proving to be a bit of a challenge right now.

1 more week till UT oncologist. Jesus if I last that fucking long without a breakdown.