Honest

If I let myself be really honest… I try really hard not to lean too heavily on anyone. Partly because I know this could be so much worse than it is… And partly because I am genuinely afraid about all of this. Cancer, symptoms, treatment.

Sometimes it feels completely overwhelming.

Right now it feels completely overwhelming.

I’m tired and nauseated and in pain and having one of those moments when what’s coming up is really terrifying. Annnnnd there’s the tears.

Better to cry than stuff it down says supertherapist so maybe.. maybe ill be able to just cry myself to sleep. That’d be better than lying awake all night. Right?