1 Day at a Time

I am so nervous about next week. Tuesday: follow up with Dr. Kehoe… which I’m NOT nervous about of course because I always feel better after talking to her.

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But Wednesday my port goes in and I am fucking terrified about that. Should be about a 4 hour thing from checkin to check out from what I understand but ugh… I am nervous because incisions and a port to have in me constantly for the next what… 2 months?

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Libbeth wants to fly me to Eugene for the few days before I start treatment as a treat. Part of me really WANTS to go (if I’m even allowed to fly) but I don’t know what the rules will be once that port goes in. We’ll see.

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She might be able to come down and be here for the first few days of treatment though which I think would probably be a really good thing.

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:sigh:

I need to go back to doing the whole.. one day at a time thing: it’s just that sometimes… 2 or 3 or 4 of them gang up on me all at once.