The Reason...

honestly though?

.

I’m very tired…

I’m tired of being in pain

I’m tired from being in pain

and I’m very

very

lonely.

.

Because I don’t know how to tell my real life friends

that the reason I haven’t called

or come out

or gotten together

is because

I can’t really walk

and I’m too tired

and too depressed

to spend energy

on activities and outings

that aren’t absolutely essential.

.

but at the same time

.

i am so

incredibly

lonely without them all.

.

and it all just fucking hurts.

.

and i’m so goddamned tired

of hurting.