Want it Back

Had a nice visit with people yesterday, a long call with my Libbeth, but then… a really hard night.

This morning they delivered the 19 page research packet about the Chemo/radiation research project Dr. Kehoe wants me to participate in.

I guess I officially feel like a Cancer patient now. I put so much energy and positivity into the hysterectomy FIXING this. I don’t want to deal with the fact that it didn’t.
I’m angry and sad and frustrated.

I want my life back.

And I know it could be so much worse (and the first person that says it gets punched)… but I’m so tired. I was tired when this all started, and I hate everything about this.

I just want to go HOME.