How Long...

You know the thing is… Even though those CTs came back clear. I am still afraid. I had CTs come back clear before… when there WERE tumors.

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And maybe it’s too soon to be asking this. Maybe I should wait until I’m really done with treatment, but the truth is, it is always in the back of my mind:

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I am afraid. I think I will always be afraid. What if it comes back and they don’t see it? Will I be afraid of Cancer for the rest of my life? Even when this is “over”?

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I’m not even done with treatment and I’m afraid. How long will I be afraid?